Clog #3 - For Ecuador

Here’s the week in numbers:

At the 2012 Varsity Elimpics, Ecuador’s medal count totaled 4: two bronzes (one for long jump, one for cabin clean-up) and two golds (one for synchronized swimming and one for tug-of-war).

Perhaps our numbers weren’t that impressive. But it deserves mention that we are the only cabin in the history of Elim that has done “The Wobble” together in the pool.

My cbf Morgan and I counseled together, which was a good experience… we have different styles, but each had plenty of opportunities with 14 campers.

I read about 30 pages of The Brothers Karamazov. A word from Father Zossima: “If you have been talking to me so sincerely simply to gain approbation for your frankness, as you did from me just now, then of course you will not attain to anything in the achievement of real love; it will all get no further than dreams, and your whole life will slip away like a phantom.”

MY WHOLE LIFE IS A SHAM.

CAN’T CHANGE THAT.

The speaker’s longest closing prayer lasted for about 9 minutes, during which he did 2 altar calls… I wish I had had the courage to get up and walk out.

But then someone might not approve of me anymore, and I don’t think I could handle that.

I’m not sure if anything I did was for Ecuador or for me.

I want to want to be a selfless, humble person who doesn’t fight for attention.